Scripted DAILY

It kills you from the inside.

     And I really dnt know how to feel exactly. I’m glad that I’m starting something new in life but at the same time I regret not taking the chances I knew I would fit into. After taking my placement test and receiving my scores, I realized that I could have gotten into the CSU and the UC’s I applied to. I guess in the end, I didn’t have the mentality…and more realistically, the balls to pull through. I could say I had enough potential, determination and ambition, but I didn’t know what to do with it.

I can’t do anything now except FUCK SHIT UP in college and totally kick ass and transfer to a UC, CSU or even Hawaii . Sounds like a good plan, huh? Now that I think about it, college is like High School except with a much broader age range and without the popularity contest and the friend/relationship drama (mostly).

     I’m not taking this experience lightly, though. I’m changing my mind set and my maturity. Because wither I like it or not, THIS IS THE FIRST STEP IN DETERMINING MY LIFE and there isn’t time for me to make errors and make them up. I’m proud of myself, I’m growing up more than I thought I would after high school unlike some others. I’m going to two different colleges and try working two jobs at the same time, while still trying to juggle a girlfriend, family time, and spend time with my homies. Not to mention an internship. If that ain’t growing up, I don’t know what is. You have to make sacrifices, right?

     It’s a lot to handle, but fuck it. I have to prove myself more in order to grow up stronger. Determine my resolve and stop messing around. That’s what college and maturity is, right? “Creating yourself, not finding yourself.”

:Scripted DAILY:

You were big, stupid looking sweaters thinking it’s the shit because everyone wears them now. Before it was even cool, you wouldn’t be caught dead in em. This sweater for example, stupid looking right? but if you gave it to a girl, threw on some leggings, some ray bans, a small purse with a long strap, some boots, semi-messy “I don’t give a fuck about my hair” hair, while she smokes a cigarette, and took a picture of her on a digital camera and made the image look like it was film…then you got a hipster.

Just something on my mind.

reminiscethoughts:

yourfavouritememory:

(via itsjustjeassah)

nessapee:

jaemond:

expect everything, receive nothing

expect nothing, receive everything

this is how i feel about a lot of stuff

genuinelydope:

And when it comes to being a man, shit I’m barely getting my feet wet.”
-Blu (Show Me The Good Life) 

One of my favorite songs.

was amazing. I couldn’t even breath the whole day because everytime I inhaled oxygen all I got was weed in my lungs. shit, I thought I was still high when I woke up! expect a full blog later.

:Scripted DAILY:

Things are going to change now. No turning back. Its either now, or fucking never.